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[frameofmind6]

Have you ever been attracted to someone who was completely wrong for you? It's like that Sarah Mclaughlin song -- "How stupid could I be? / A simpleton could see / that you're no good for me / but you're the only one I see..." (*sigh*) I was fine as long as he was seeing someone else, but they broke up recently, and I just found out about it this weekend. It's really ridiculous --

I mean, he and I are practically opposites (in fact he sort of freaked me out when I first met him). Maybe I've been watching too much Inuyasha -- the whole "good girl + bad boy" thing is starting to appeal to me...

Alright, before I slip into the sort of teen melodrama that I so despise, let's change the subject...

Just got back from a trip to San Antonio with my choir (of which, btw, both "bad boy" and his former girlfriend just happen to be members) -- my third and final trip of the month (thank god). It was more fun than I thought it would be, actually. I mean, my fellow choir nerds are great, but I just don't happen to be wired well for group travel. I like the flexibility and freedom of traveling on my own or with my family or friends or whatever. As it turned out, though, things were really pretty flexible. True, we had to be herded around to various sites on a pair of coach buses, but once we got wherever we were going they would just give us a time and place to regroup, and turn us loose to wander where we chose. It was especially nice at lunch, because they'd usually take us to a shopping mall and give us a couple of hours to hang out and eat and browse. I had so much Starbucks this weekend it's not even funny...(*grin*)

It was really nice to get a chance to talk to all sorts of people that I hadn't even spoken to before too. I'm an introvert by nature, so it required a bit of effort, but I did pretty well. Got to know a lot of guys I'd never really met (it's harder to get to know them in choir because they all sit behind us, so I can never really match the names with the faces...*grin*).

Well, my mind seems to have gone blank, so I'd better stop typing now. I've got writing and beta-ing to get to -- not to mention my homework...heh...

Comments

[windesprite.livejournal.com]

I know, seriously! It seems like you can only have one or the other... a talent for talking to people, or a talent for writing a conversation between two people. -_-;;

And it's okay, I feel your pain. I can't flirt either -- or when I do, I completely blow it by going tomato red. >_< LoL do you by any chance put real life frustrations into your stories?

[frameofmind6.livejournal.com]

Yeah, whenever I'm attracted to someone, it's always my first instinct to ignore them as much as possible so they don't notice -- which is not a very effective flirting technique, I've discovered. I'm working on that...

As to the real life frustrations in my stories -- are you kidding? All the time! I don't know if you ever read my oneshot "More Than Words," but that one in particular was more about me than it was about Akane (the ideas, that is -- not the details). Most of my best work (or at least what I perceive to be my best work) has some sort of personal connection on some level. I like to think that's what gives it life. And you know "Father's House, Husband's House," right? That one has a lot of me in it as well. Spoiled rich girl who's never had to work a day in her life, intimidated by things like subways and strip malls and crowds of ordinary strangers, yet strangely driven to step outside her comfort zone and figure out what it is she's missing -- that's pretty much me dealing with the idea of going off to college next year and having to learn to live in the real world. Granted, I've taken things to the extreme in the story in order to better illustrate my point (and make it more interesting than my real life -- *grin*), but that's what it's really about at it's core.

[windesprite.livejournal.com]

Ahhh me too! When I actually realize I like someone, I actually start ignoring them more than when I considered them a friend... I'm trying to change that, but after so many years of instinctual behavior (maybe it's a "fight or flight" thing... hm...) it's not going very well. -_-;; Hee, I berate myself time and time again for not being more... open... I'm much to sutble. Grr.

Lol, yeah I think so too... a good part of my drabbles are frustrations heaped into 100 words... or scenarios that I fantasize during class. =P I love "Father's House, Husband's House"! And I can relate to your problem there, too, lol. ^_~